HARDEST VIDEO I EVER FILMED | DESI PERKINS

čas přidán 10. 07. 2018
This is a long one....but it all needed to be said. I hope this video helps anyone that's going through something similar, and to know that you're not alone. I also hope this video educates anyone who doesn't know how pregnancy questions could affect someone who's dealt or dealing with a stillbirth, miscarriages, infertility & any other pregnancy complications.
Extending all my love to all of those who are suffering. Know that I'm here with you ❤️

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  • 💓 💓__ LOvE Is _ Life ___💓 💓 _???

  • This is your year sweetheart. Sending you all my love.

  • May God bless you 🙏

  • Thank you for sharing your story - it can't be easy to be so vulnerable, so thank you! Typically we don't talk about these subjects and it can feel very lonely and scary so you talking about this is changing that. Sharing your story gives me comfort. Sending you much love and happiness.

  • Me and my husband is goin thru the same thing I been trying to get pregnant over 3/years but I know GOD will bless me and he will bless you keep faith

  • Keep your head up love. Stay positive, don’t overwhelm yourself with negative thoughts that have not even happened. You don’t have to let anyone know but your family when you get pregnant. Look at Ryan Serhant and his wife Emilia, they kept the secret until the very end because of the same reason. They had miscarriages but surprised us with a baby girl at the end. Cheer up, it will happen ❤️ Love, A supporter.

  • Desi I pray God sends you healthy beautiful babies because you deserve the entire world! I would always feel saddened by those women who couldn’t get pregnant but after two loses of my own in less than a year... I understand you and other women who are struggling as well. I understand the hurt and the pain who goes through physically and emotionally. And even though I’ve given up on having kids of my own... desi I’m praying for you everyday!! You are gonna be the greatest momma out there!

  • What if she forgot to turn on the camera for the whole video?😢😢😢

  • I already wrote a comment what I was thinking about this whole situation. I wish you the best desi! Does anyone know where her hoodie is from?? I don’t want to be rude really

  • Desi i'm sorry that you were/are going through all of this and i understand your pain, suffering and fers because in 2007 i went through a miscarriage, last year i went through two miscarriages and i also didn't not tell many people...

  • Hi Desi, you deserve the world. ♥️

  • I suffer completely from what you suffer .. I have 3 times a bad miscarriage .. very painful.. psychologically and physically..but don't worry, being close to God and do not forget to pray .. I followed diet regimens in order to carry a child .. I worked hard and dealt with many treatments all related to reproduction and follow-up ovulation. Now I am the mother of 3 wonderful children and gave birth 3 months ago ..( Never give up ).. I am now if I want to carry a baby again I must follow a diet and take ovulation treatments and repeat what I started again ... I love you very much .. Thank you for sharing your story ..❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • Desi, I’m so sorry that people can be assholes. I’m just now seeing these videos. Its not malicious but sometimes folks just don’t think beyond themselves. Having gone through breast cancer, infertility treatments and two failed adoptions, I can relate. We are still waiting to be parents (7 yrs now) and remain patient but we still get those comments. My fav, “Still no babies?”. Its always hard to hear. Sometimes I want to angrily tell them to STFU and they’ll know when it happens, but I refrain, smile and say generically cheery “No, not yet but we are still hopeful”. I don’t have any advise or wise words to give you but just know that I (and other women) can completely empathize with your pain. I’m grateful you shared your story so that closed minded people can gain perspective outside of themselves.

  • This breaks my heart... 😥

  • Awwww Desi, my Heart breaks for you. Watching you I see me. I know exactly what your going thru. I got pregnant on my own 4 times an had 4 miscarriages. I also had 4 IUI's & 3 IVF's going to an infertility specialist. My GYN did 2 hysterosalpingograms where they pushed dye thru my tubes to check for blockages which came back normal. It's so emotionally exhausting. My advice to you Desi would be: Keep getting different opinions. Go to different infertility specialist. You shouldn't be w/ your regular GYN for this. Have you checked your Progesterone Levels. You could try taking progesterone while your trying & after you get pregnant. Progesterone is what supports your pregnancy in the very beginning. It makes the uterus sticky for the egg to attach. Then it supports & nourishes the pregnancy until the placenta kicks in. Dont wait Desi because the older you get your eggs aren't as viable. If you dont get results with one infertility specialist go to another infertility specialist. I understand how the mind starts to play tricks on you, were you think you feel pregnant but your not. Please Dont be ashamed because many many women are going through this. Your not alone. Dont give up.

  • “Everything is possible. The impossible just takes longer.” 💞💖💝

  • I was just thinking about this video today. I'm still praying for you and Steven! I'm still struggling with infertility myself. I know that God will provide for us both!

  • Watching this video for the second time and it's breaking my heart. Allah please bless this beautiful soul with a baby xxxx

  • Hold onto your Faith...(and your hubby). God is with you always.

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  • This is so incredibly common feeling and looking pregnant. It's called phantom pregnancy people have even had their stomachs bloat to a point that they look 5 6 months pregnantand they're not. Our mind is so powerful that it really can create physical reactions. I just wanted to share that because I didn't see any other comments saying that you're right you're not crazy it is common.

  • I’m 22 and I can’t have kids due to having Ulcerative Colitis and having multiple surgeries. I love you ❤️

  • Miracles happen every day, I will pray for you. You are such a brave woman for making this video. God Bless!

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  • Desi don’t worry about tell anyone but you and your family...I’m sending you all the prayers in the world 🙏🏽 WHEN it happens you are going to have gorgeous children it maybe a struggle but there are so may medical advances that are available now and other options. Stay positive I wish you all the luck in the work and it will happen one day god will give you the baby that you have been waiting for! For now enjoy ur marriage and your life and keep positive and it will happen when u least expect it! Sending all my ❤️ and wishes to the Perkins I love your story and how much you love each other

  • I watched this last year when you posted this & I related in a lot of ways. This video absolutely breaks my heart for y’all! I do think things happen for a reason. We may just not see them now. I have a feeling y’all will get pregnant & will be the best parents! Oh my, how blessed this baby will be! 🥰 Y’all are in my thoughts & prayers! 😊😊😊

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  • You are so strong to be this open with such a sensitive subject. God will grace you in divine timing.

  • I am just watching this video as a scientist now in beauty make sure all of your cosmetics are free from Parabens, phthalates, Bha, Bht. Also look for ingredients that end in -siloxane or -methicone and avoid these products all of these are endocrine disruptor‘s as well as fertility, and reproduction disruptors. I bring science to beauty on my channel and the harsh reality is cosmetics play a huge role in issues that you are expressing here. I’m so so sorry

  • You’re raw emotions and honesty in this video are honestly so inspiring. I look up to you and your strength and also your kindness to help others who are going through similar pain and making them not feel alone. I don’t even know you but I feel for you and I am sending you love light and faith and it will happen for you, no matter what way it happens for you. You’re a beautiful soul girl, many blessings to you and your family ❤️🙏🏼

  • I'm so sorry you faced difficulties during your ttc. I couldn't hold back my tears while I was watching your video. You're so strong bc you shared your journey here with many people, who also have their fertility struggles. I'm in the same boat... I had 2 failed IVF rounds, 1 m/c. I should say this’s so hard to be positive and focus on the upcoming treatment... Last year 5 of my friends announced their pregnancies. Obviously, almost all of them have had their babies by now. I wanted to join them so badly but it didn’t happen. Now I’m getting ready to my third IVF. But this time I'll be using donor eggs. I really hope it will work for us! My best friend recently announced her pregnancy. She told me they conceived without even trying... I'm so happy for her... But at the same time I'm so sad for me. Being not pregnant and ttcing among pregnant who haven’t even tried is so hard… Good luck to everyone who's struggling!

  • Oh honey, your strength. It is a soul crushing journey. My heart is right there with you ❤️

  • Desi, everything you're going through or have been or was, i'm going through right now too. I can only relate so much to this video. Last year when you posted this, I watched this. And we were only in the process of thinking we wanted to start trying. More than a year later, we still have no luck. Please know that you're not alone. Everything you say goes through your mind goes through mine also. Everything everyone has said to you guys they say to us too. I don't know what to say because I know anything anyone says to me doesn't make me feel any better. If anything it only ends up making me feel worse. I pray that we both soon receive some good news sooner or later.

  • We struggled with infertility for years as at a young age I was diagnosed with pcos We went through treatment and had a beautiful baby boy. Now our family has expanded and we still live with the thought of how did we get so lucky. A change diet lead to my success for the next two, being gluten free allowed me to have 2 naturally. We now vlog our lives as we are incredibly lucky to be where we are. Never give up there’s alway hope.

  • Both you and Steven are so incredibly strong. Someday everything will work itself out, whichever way. ❣️❣️

  • Why wouldn’t you consider adoption? You can change the life of this child

  • I love you Desi. We're here for you. 💛

  • Stop crying and you going to be pregnant soon go and try to get pregnant because you can

  • We do love you Desi, we only want the best for you. Sorry you have been going through all of this. I went through a miscarriage also and it was horrendous, it just plays with your mind so much. I had nightmares, I creied all the time, it was awful

  • I feel every word you’re saying... I was pregnant with my baby boy and was so exited to be a mommy... until I got to 26 weeks and had to rush to the hospital and give an early birth ..... he was so tiny and lived only for 1 week...... and until this day I don’t know what happened and why it happened... I just want him to be in me again 💔💔💔 I’m so heart broken.

  • TRY ONE MORE TIME DESI.... DO NOT GIVE UP

  • you are such a beautiful inspiring women Desi, Your time will come. we love you!

  • Oh and my mom got pregnant with my brother at the age of 39. There is soooo much time left

  • You're not disappointing anyone Desi, everybody loves you! I know for sure that someday, when the time is right, you'll get pregnant :-)

  • This is the second hardest video I have seen of yours and it’s brakes my heart to see this because I know how that feels. My younger sister is having a baby and it was so hard for me to be happy for her at first because I have been trying for a while now and it made me feel selfish for that. It’s so hard to put up a front that you okay when in reality your hurting inside. I just want you to know your not alone and it’s okay . I hope god will bless you with a baby soon, and just know it will happen when the time is right . Love you Desi !

  • God, please give Desi a healthy, happy baby. She deserves it all. 🙏🏼❤️

  • You are so strong Desi. Trust the path that god has for you. We all love you

  • You are such a beautiful soul. I wish I knew you personally. Keep the faith, all in God’s timing! My Sister in law was blessed with a girl after 26 years of marriage. I had 3 miscarriages before having my baby boy. You guys WILL be the best parents! Blessings to you both. Hugs 🤗 ❤️🙏🏼

  • Girl it's okay to be how you are and all the emotions will come out and no matter how long it's been it's still a sensitive subject I have had a miscarriage before and it was really hard for me to get over but it's just not something you can get over because it was a human being and after that I was so scared and too sad to even want another baby or even try so I didn't for years and then it happened I have 2 beautiful baby boys but before having the first one trust we were trying so hard to have one and it just didn't work so I just said we just need to not stress over it and if it happens it'll happen it takes up so much energy really that you should leave it and let God help guide the way. Don't worry it'll happen one day if not sooner and I believe that you will be able to have a child in the future. I'm rooting for you Desi your such a beautiful and bomb ass person and you are definitely not alone. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜💜💜sending you lots of love and praying for you! God give her a damn baby goddamn it! Lol love you Desi and stay strong! 🤞🤞🤞✊✊✊

  • I was not ready for this video 😭.... Thank you for sharing your most intimate struggle. When God permits you to have children those kids will be so loved. Blessings Desi 💝

  • Desi you and Steven are so in my prayers. 🙏

  • seeing this video, so touching, and yet so many dislikes. are people not human? jeez! just a proof that haters will hate no matter what.

  • You and your husband will be in my prayers. I know exactly what you are feeling. It took my husband and I 4 years to finally get pregnant. And I was just like you so excited yet terrified to take a pregnancy test and to see it was negative again and again. It tore me up every time. Don t lose hope and trust in God's will. If you are still stressing, what helped me was to go get a full body massage once a week. I am not saying this will 100% get you pregnant but it will help relax your body and mind. Praying that God blesses you with beautiful healthy baby:)

  • I 100% feel you. Dealing with the same subject ....this is so hard to talk about this whole theme with friends ... one day our wishes will become live!

  • Sending you xoxoxo

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  • Omg I’ll keep you guys in my prayers

  • I couldn’t have children. I adopted and am so glad I did. I found a support group of couples struggling and made my life so much better. They understood my struggles. People asked me all the time so finally I pretty much told people to be more kind. I couldn’t have babies. I was there for the adoption delivery and was there through all the appointments. Open adoption is awesome. God bless we will see those babies we lost in heaven. Keep smiling

  • Came here after I seen your drs office post about the fertility Dr. I hope things start to look up for you and you get that beautiful baby you have been dying for. I’m not pregnant nor have kids but that is also one of my worst fears is not being able to get pregnant. My heart is with you Desi ❤️

  • I love you so much, I know we both will get our rainbow babies ❤️