čas přidán 7. 08. 2019
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I want to thank you guys for always being there, and I will always appreciate all of you being there for me. I hope this video isn't too morbid, but the venting needed to happen. Love you ❤️
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  • Thank you Desi, for being so real. We all have issues and I pray for everyone. Don't give up.

  • So sorry you are going through this. You had so much sadness in your voice. I thought you were goin to cry any moment. Hang in there girl!

  • I missed this video when it first came out, but i think it's because i needed to hear this right now

  • I just wanted to say God loves you so much, he sent his only begotten son Jesus Christ to die on the cross for our sins and rose victorious on the third day defeating the devil and bringing salvation to all who believe in him! You are valuable and loved by the CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH. He knows your situation and hears your prayers when you come to him with a sincere heart!! THE CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH WANTS A RELATIONSHIP WITH YOU!!! John 3:16 King James Version (KJV) 16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

  • What was your nail color called?

  • As an IUF concieved child myself hearing you speak so positively about IVF makes my heart warm.

  • Love love love you 💕🌸💕🌸

  • For how long will you be taking the medication before you try another way to get pregnant? ❤️

  • Desssssiii!!! TAKE THE MEDICATIONS AT NIGHT BEFORE BED!!! I did 6 rounds of clomid and femera and the side affects are no where as bad if you take before bed!!

  • I love your honesty in this video!

  • I support you 💕♥️ you’re a true inspiration. And you’re going to make a wonderful mother sending prayers and blessing your ways 🙏🏼♥️💕♥️

  • Look, I appreciate the fact that you want to have kids and like children. But should we just allow the universe to decide on natural selection? Not that IVF is bad (immoral) or taking hormone pills are bad either. But from a philosophical perspective, humans should not be choosing the gender of children or abilities. And that scares me. Hopefully, you don't fall into the hole of discrimination with your journey of conceiving a child. Best of luck tho.

  • Legit sitting here thinking "how can she do her makeup in a tiny af NARS mirror?"

  • I got pregnant on femara (similar to clomid but better and less risks, I'm in Canada, they banned clomid a few years ago and started offering femara -letrozole) I mean I miscarried that baby. But then got off of it and got pregnant naturally twice .. still lost those babies. We've been ttc for over two years. Hoping it happens for us soon. I'm always waiting for a pregnancy announcement from you. I hope it happens for u guys soon


  • You'll be pregnant in Jesus mighty name! God will grant you , the desires of your heart, bc He is a good & loving Father. I speak life into your womb, Holy Spirit bring life into this woman's body, in Jesus name. I command darkness to flee, NOW, in Jesus name. I will say rejoice and receive your miracle. God bless you.

  • When she said she felt like 💩 i instantly knew she’d decided to go on Clomid

  • Girl ur still at stage 1 for Clomid!!!! Oh gosh don’t even worry about it, u WILL have a baby guaranteed as long as u have a uterus, working ovaries, and sperm U WILL BE OKAY . I know it’s so hard to wait and do all the medication and the whole journey is very stressful and emotional but with that being said it’ll create a deeper bond between u and ur baby more than if u were to just get pregnant easily. Science and modern medication are really good at what their made for, trust u will have a baby soon ♥️

  • Hi Desi, i love your videos, and thank you for your honesty! I've been through the same ordeal, i had a miscarriage 2 months ago and it was and still is devastating to think about.. But it happens to a lot of women and i can always try again later. I hope you feel better soon, and are able to conceive, you'd be the best mom! BTW try eating a whole food plant based diet, dont drink alcohol, or eat any animal products, detox with green juices and celery juice and see how you feel after a few weeks and i hope things work out for you and Steven 💞💜💞💜💞💜💞💜💞

  • feeeeeeel this, don't lose hope

  • We’ve been trying for a baby the past six years too. It’s been a long & difficult journey with plenty of ups and downs, but I’m hopeful that it will all be worth it some day. On my first IVF cycle now. Fingers crossed for us both ❤️

  • I'm praying for you and I hope you get pregnant very soon

  • you should try balance by Alani nu! a lot of people have had success with it!

  • Loved listening to your story...you’re so strong and beautiful inside & out. Best of luck with everything Desi!!!

    • But can you post the product description 😂😂😂😂

  • 💕💕💕 I love you

  • I just got of nuvaring birth control and me and my boyfriend are now trying and its exhausting to feel disappointed when I take an ovulation test and its negative or when I take a birth control and its negative. I've been taking the Alani Nu Balance pills that beauty bird took and praying alot to God we can conceive as well. . I'm praying for you alot girl 🙏🙏🙏 love u

  • I had 3 miscarriages. I was on Femara for 6 cycles, Clomid for 4 with IUI. Both medications make you feel insane, you’re not alone there. Right now I’m pregnant with a baby girl due in 5 weeks and it was all worth it. I’m praying for you guys ❤️ God will bless you with your baby. All in his time.

  • Thank you for being so raw & transparent with us Desi ♥️

  • I wish you to have this beautiful baby !

  • I was so stressed after a miscarriage that I ended up having a heart attack a few months after it. We had tried for about 6 years for baby no. 2. I just couldn't deal with losing a baby, and the doctor told me not to even try anymore, that my heart wouldn't be able to cope with a pregnancy. But I feel happy/blessed that I have my beautiful son. BUT if I didn't have him, and if I couldn't have a baby successfully naturally or through IVF, I would have adopted. I would have adopted after the miscarriage, but because of my heart attack I wouldn't have qualified. Also my husband was not keen to adopt a child. But personally, I think it is the most amazing gift, to give a wonderful life to a child who would probably have struggled her/his whole life otherwise. The gift goes both ways. I just love children.. I've only recently discovered you, and your makeup artistry is my favourite. I can tell you have a sweet soul and have so much love to give a child. Thx for sharing your story. You would be helping so many other women who are going through the same thing feel not alone. Big hugs to you Desi.. praying it will happen for you soon... xxxx

  • If there was a heart reaction here I would hit it.....you are amazing

  • My parents tried IVF for years and eventually adopted. There were issues on both sides so this is in no way saying IVF will not work for you. I know many women and men want their own biological children (even my own) but of you want to complete your family, I hope you consider it if that is what you really want! Best of luck with conceiving I really wish you the best!

  • ♥️💗♥️💗❤️💗

  • Desi you are such an amazing person! Thank you for sharing

  • Rooting and praying for baby Perkins!

  • ♥️♥️♥️

  • Hi desi just wondering after so long of trying what is the reason you don't go straight to IVF. I understand a lot of women cannot afford it but for you I think financial circumstances would be different. Also would you be open to IUI before IVF?

  • Have you tried ovasitol? It’s a supplement. My nutritionist recommended it. Its for ovarian health and to help you ovulate naturally. Iv just recently started using it and Iv already noticed a difference. We have been trying for 2 years. I did 3 rounds of clomid and it literally just made me feel like crap and didn’t work for me. Good luck to you ♥️

  • We tried for 5 years, went through 3 IUI with Clomid (aka the devil 😂 those hot flashes gaaaaaah ) and 8 rounds of IVF to get our babies! We now have 1 year old triplets! It was the hardest time in my life but so worth the wait! Don’t give up love! Stay strong and be KIND to yourself and him! So many prayers your way, you baby will in your arms soon love!! 💗💗💗💗💗💗

    • 8 rounds of IVF? wow!!!!! How did you survive all the damn injections and meds?

  • So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. Isaiah 41: 10 Que dios te bendiga Desi, I really hope god blesses you with a child. You're so great, and lets be honest... a mini desi? That would be fantastic. Keep your head up. I like seeing these videos because I mean, I'm a nobody, I still have hope to start my makeup channel but It's just not in the cards right now but it's nice to watch videos and these types specifically to just update us. I had noticed that you weren't posting as much or as present, and I remembered this one part that you had talked about and I figured maybe that's why. Anytime I do remember, I take a little moment to Pray to God for you and Steven. Bueno, won't take up more of your time.

  • I’m praying for you!!!!

  • I love the video💕 the make up and the therapy. Thank you for sharing!!

  • ugh just seeing this now and i know i dont know you and we are in very different places in our respective lives (im in my third year of university) but i feel for you so hard and i know both you and steven will be the most amazing parents and no matter where this journey ends up the both of you will be stronger because of it, with so much love in your hearts. ever since you (very bravely) opened up about these issues i have (and will continue to) sent you guys all of the good thoughts ❤️ love u so much!

  • I am wishing you best of luck to get pregnant and have baby in your arm! I got married in 2001 and only 14 years later got my daughter! I know how it feels! Been there! For me it wasn’t hard to get pregnant, it was to give birth to baby! I got 2 miscarriages and I was feeling so guilty! So down! But omg! Having baby is super fun and I cannot wait for you to become mom!!!! 💖

  • Thank you for sharing your story girl!! It’s not an easy thing to talk about..but doing so really helps other women that are going threw the same struggles. Loved this video and loovve the makeup look too!! 🖤

  • 💜💜💜

  • you're amazing I love you

  • Ask your doctor if you can get switched to Femara, I don’t have side effects with it. you should get a vaginal ultrasound, to check for anything, and get a hsg test done to check if your Fallopian tubes are not blocked.

  • Why didn’t you review Jackie Ainas palette? She reviewed both of your collabs with dose of colors. I was looking forward to your review but I see you’re just like the rest. Unfortunate.

  • I see you having a cute, chubby baby... 💕 can’t wait to see him 😊

  • Keep @ it girl! I was diagnosed with infertility a while back. It's been years as well. I went on treatments. Had all those symptoms and then some. I was on Clomed for 4 months until I received my little miracle. I'm currently 27 weeks with my baby girl. Don't get discouraged! I've been there!

  • Everyone’s journey is different. I was sure at my age I was going to struggle but things came together for me within a few months. You never know what path you’re going to go on, but just try to relax and enjoy your journey. Once you get pregnant you’ll be wondering what you got yourself into! There’s so many little quirks about pregnancy you won’t discover until you get there. I know you’re going to make a great mom! Keep the faith and try not to stress too much.

  • 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

  • I am sorry you are having a rough time with fertility meds. But you are so not alone. I have never done clomid, but my husband and I conceived via ICSI IVF and the meds were emotionally exhausting. I'm 29 weeks and I never thought it would happen for us. Give yourself time. I wish you so much luck.

  • Ur so cute I love you, it’ll happen and it will be unforgettable

  • My aunt had the same problem, with wanting to expand her family with her husband after years of trying and it never worked. One day she went to a local elderly lady in our neighborhood who’s known to have “visions”-long story short all she told her was to move the furniture in her home differently and to stop drinking coffee.. literally 4 months after she told the family she’s having her first baby at 37 years old, she’s been trying since 23! Some things work differently for people. You got this Desi

  • I’m currently going through some health issues/medications that are making me feel less myself and giving me heat flushes and vertigo and its so hard but all you can do is keep trying and hope that its all worth it! inspired by you opening up and keeping things real, thank you for making me feel less alone and less like an outcast, bless xx

  • Love you girl!!😘💓

  • Desi open your Instagram DM!!! My name Is xo_cyn I sent you a message about how to fix your trouble conceiving! I’m on the same page as you and I want you to be able to have babies too!!!!

  • Desi, I LOVE watching your videos and love that you keep it real. Have you ever considered chiropractic care? Lot’s of people do not know that chiropractic can help with so many things. Most people associate chiro with neck and back pain BUT it is actually an overall health and wellness type of care. It is a more holistic approach. God designed and created our bodies to do it’s own healing, chiropractors remove the interference. I love you and pray that God bless you with children. 💜